Ashes

~ Received Kona's ashes earlier today.  I felt myself tearing up as I stood at the counter and told the young woman there that I was here to pick up Kona's ashes.  I noticed there were several bags behind her on the top shelf with names on them.  The biggest bag was Kona's.  

Me and my husband brought along her sister, Maya, to visit the animal clinic.  We finally confirmed that Maya can't control her bowels when she gets excited. Yes, she pooped inside the clinic. There were other people there, waiting for their appts.  It was quite embarrassing but then, what are you gonna do?  And yes, she IS potty trained and has been since we trained her as a puppy.

When I got home, I emptied the contents of the bag.  Kona's ashes were placed inside a rather large, gold urn. It's heavy too.  I don't want to look inside. I know it's just ashes, it's her but I still have a difficult time grasping this concept.  There was also a small necklace with some of her ashes as well as her paw print cast inside a glass frame with her name on it.  And yes, there was the rainbow bridge poem. 

After that, I stood at the patio glass doors and looked out on the backyard.  I saw a large, yellow butterfly float by and shortly after that, I saw a small, white butterfly.  I want to believe that was Kona. I also saw a yellow butterfly on the day that Kona passed, while also looking out at the backyard. 

I still can't believe my sweet girl is gone.  I tried so hard to keep her going as long as I could.